What did I think? WHAT DID I THINK?!
Well, if I told you that I sat on the bed and cried exactly like this for about five to ten minutes after I'd closed the book, does that put it in perspective for you?
I really, really
liked the front cover for 'If You Could See Me Now'
, it was simple, natural, and actually depicts a huge
part in the book. When I first saw it I thought it was lovely anyway because I love the thought of making a wish with dandelions and then blowing them to watch your wish float away on the breeze, but you don't truly understand the power of the front cover until you have read the book. What I love about Ahern's
cover is that she hasn't gone over the top with it. With so many ideas and themes floating around in the book, she could have gone absolutely mental! But she didn't, thank god! And I think she achieved the desired effect, without a doubt!
The book's about...
So, the book is set in a small town in Ireland and is about a woman, named Elizabeth
grew up with a dysfunctional family. Her mother wanted to be a free spirit, she couldn't cope with staying in one place for too long. She wanted to go on her own little adventures, to explore and not be rooted to the same place forever. Elizabeth's
father never questioned this, he only wanted his wife to be happy, even if it meant he was left on his own to look after Elizabeth
for days on end. Elizabeth
was not an only child though. Oh no
. Her mother also gave birth to another little girl, named Saoirse
, which, after looking into it, means freedom
in Irish Gaelic. And true to the name, that is what she is. As their mother disappears once again, their father is left to care for both of them, cradling and nursing Saorise
to hush her crying. When it all gets too much, their father hands Saoirse
over to Elizabeth
, and she brings her baby sister up herself.
is the foster parent of Saoirse's
six year old son Luke
ended up growing up into a stern young woman. With her mother constantly absent and only dropping in and out when she felt like returning to the nest, Elizabeth
missed out on what it's like to be truly loved by a mother. Now, with little experience of love and affection, Elizabeth
tries her damned hardest to bring Luke
up in the best way she knows. With her constant cleaning, coffee rituals and lack of humour, Elizabeth
is beginning to wonder where she goes from here. Her sister Saoire
never did grow out flying, just like their mother. She uses Elizabeth's
car whenever she feels like it, drinks until the sun comes up and is happy to leave her little boy in the care of her sister, rather than taking on the responsibility herself.
One day, after Elizabeth
has just seen Saoirse
, once again, get into her car and drive off, she slumps down at the kitchen table and sips her coffee. Suddenly, she hears the sound of Luke
mumbling to himself in his toy room. It turns out that Luke
has created his own imaginary friend, known as Ivan
. In fact, Luke
didn't create Ivan
Little does Ivan
know, his world is about to turn upside down, and not because of Luke
. As Ivan
begins to become more and more enthralled by Elizabeth
, they are sent on a journey together that will change both of their lives. Forever.
The Characters Were...
The characters were fantastic! Elizabeth
is the perfect face of a headmistress. She's so stern, never laughs, always wears dull colours, has her hair tightly pulled back, and thinks life, for her, is going nowhere. As a struggling interior designer, she's finding it hard to find any inspiration, and work for that matter. Until, a hotel is being built in the area and she decides to apply for the position. What I didn't like about Elizabeth
was the fact that she let so many opportunities go because Saoirse
was in some sort of trouble. But I guess that's family for you. You learn that she would break her back just to help her sister or her father. She really needs some fun in her life, some laughter, some excitement, something magical...Saoirse annoyed the hell out of me!
Gr! As much as I understand the need for people to get away from their worries and problems sometimes, this woman just took it too far! Yes. She's probably learned from the best (her mother mainly) that it's okay to ditch all of her responsibility and just fly away to wherever you want and be free as a bird. But, really? Are you going to leave your son under your sister's supervision because you can't be bothered, and you're too busy running around all over the place and acting like an immature teenager! I mean, honestly! She's lying on the hills in the small village, drinking underneath the sky and running away with groups of hippies, while her sister is struggling to bring up her son in a life that's not sure what it wants to do with her! GOD DAMN IT SAOIRSE!
What is wrong with you!?! And the way she speaks to Elizabeth
? I felt so sorry for that poor woman, she's got a whole load of stuff weighing down on her shoulders, and Saoirse
just keeps swanning in and out like a f*cking
fairy! Urgh. I don't like her.. Sit down Saoirse, just sit the f*ck down and shut up.
was an awesome six year old boy, just plodding along, regardless of the mess that his mother has made. He's just a normal six year old I think, playing with his toys, laughing at silly jokes and, I think, just wanting to be cuddled and told "I love you"
. He is the one who Ivan
links on to, and who helps Elizabeth
realise that she can love, she doesn't realise that she has it in her.
Now, out of all of the characters in this book, this guy has to be my ultimate favourite! Ivan
is the imaginary friend, although I have to add, it really annoys him when people refer to him as imaginary or invisible. Damn, he hates that! Ivan
is an awesome guy. He comes into Luke's
life just when they need a little bit of colour brought into their dull, grey world. He's a converse wearing, friendly and lovable guy, who really knows how to cheer people up, even when they don't want to smile.
Did The Author Pull It Off?
I think Cecelia Ahern
pulled it off extremely
well! There's so much magic and creativity hidden inside this book, it really makes you smile! :)
Surely There Must Have Been One Bad Point?
The only bad point was that stupid b*tch Saoirse
I was crying. I was laughing. I was crying some more.
And then I heard myself saying, "I believe..."