“It was painful to contemplate the distance between the future of accomplishment I'd imagined for myself twenty years earlier...it was painful to understand that the cushion of exceptionality invoked by the drug had made me oblivious to my inertia. And it was painful to have to define myself again, at an age when most people are happy in their own skins.”
“If I had to offer up a one sentence definition of addiction, I'd call it a form of mourning for the irrecoverable glories of the first time...addiction can show us what is deeply suspect about nostalgia. That drive to return to the past isn't an innocent one. It's about stopping your passage to the future, it's a symptom of fear of death, and the love of predictable experience. And the love of predictable experience, not the drug itself, is the major damage done to users.”
“Addiction is a bargain with the cosmos: only stay time, and I'll remain in this holding pattern, too. The uncrossable gap between now and the past is given tangible form and conquered, daily, in the real but bridgeable gap between what I need and what I can get. Addiction creates a god so that time will stop--why all gods are created. God might be another story.”
“The fear of the drugs running out is manageable-the fear of time running down isn’t.”
“Once upon a time the future was supposed to be brighter, shinier and more fun. When did that vision pass? When did the word 'new' lose it's luster? Now the past is supposed to hold the hopes we once confided to the future. We're directing attachments that used to go forward backward.”
“Heroin is a stand-in, a stop-gap, a mask, for what we believe is missing. Like the "objects" seen by Plato's man in a cave, dope is the shadow cast by cultural movements we can't see directly.”
“It was painful to contemplate the distance between the future of accomplishment I'd imagined for myself twenty years earlier, and the reality...it was painful to understand that the cushion of exceptionality invoked by the drug had made me oblivious to my inertia. And it was painful to have to define myself again, at an age when most people are happy in their own skins.”
“The fear of the drugs running out is managable-the fear of time running down isn't.”
“La ley de rendimientos decrecientes describe actividades económicas en las que cuanto más realices una operación, menos beneficios obtienes. […] La adicción es un caso especial de rendimiento decreciente en el que cuanto menos beneficios te da una cosa, más te dedicas a ella. Se supone que si eres consciente de encontrarte en una situación de rendimiento decreciente, intentarás salir de ella; eso sería lo racional. La adicción se presenta cuando eres consciente de que obtienes menos beneficios de la droga, pero te resulta más difícil, en lugar de más fácil, cambiar tu situación. Lo que ocurre es que cuanto menor es la recompensa que te proporciona la droga, más atractivo te parece el pasado. Te das cuenta de que el futuro va a ser peor que el presente y mucho peor que el pasado.”
“Never has nostalgia held stronger sway; never has the belief in the redemptive possibilities of the future seemed so laughable.”
“Cool is the way of describing from exterior viewpoints what registers as loneliness from the inside.”
“My father had always been an accomplished storyteller; it was his substitute for conversation, which required too much attention to the other person.”
“I seem to operate on the unconscious premise that if I allow inertia rather than desire to dictate my actions, i will live longer.”
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